I'm so lonely . I live alone . I am alone most of the time . I had friends on the internet but they all hate me now , I guess because of my chaotic behavior .

I want back what I had with my friends but I can never get it back. They hate me .

I'm so alone . I'm depressed and feeling so low . I hate my self . I am pathetic and a loser . no wonder I am alone . no wonder I am not happy .

I tried ringing the Samaritans but it didn't help . I'm planning to get drunk today and I don't know what I'm going to do next . I will never be happy again