so heres the thing. so far this year i have lost almost everyone i have ever loved. My boyfriend of 6 years who i loved harder than anyone left me. left me with nothing and probably thinks nothing of it no matter what he says. I dont have blood family of my own because the only person in my "family" that cared more for me like a dad than my own died in march. my grandfather. i was abused as a child and severely neglected. 8 years ago i met my boyfriends family. and 6 years ago we started dating. his family has turned into my own we were all so close i have never experienced that before in my life and i surely wouldnt do anything to hurt any of them or do anything to warrant what has happened. i was sexually assaulted by one of his family members twice this year and i finally told my than boyfriend what happened because at first i was going to keep it to myself but i couldn't bear it anymore alone. he believes me but the 2nd time it was alot more public in the family. so ofcourse his mom and wants nothing to do with me now and these things happened pretty much made it impossible for us to be together anymore so he left me 2 days ago. im torn apart inside and out. i am living with a friend because i lived with him and i dont have his family to lean on anymore. anyway. theres that. sorry its so long.