Hi. I'm sorry about what is going on with you. I have had the constant battle with OCD myself over the years, but it has gotten worse for me since I have moved. I moved from a quite town, with less than 50 000 people in it, and where i grew up was considered the Safest town in all of Canada, to literally the biggest city in all of Canada, where I get reports close to 3-4 times a week about all the crime that happens in the city around my school. This makes me quite stressful. I could just not open these messages, but it was very hard not to, as I feel like I need to know what is going on around me.

So I have only ever had only one emotional breakdown from these thoughts until moving, where I have had another, but I get these thoughts again daily. I get so scared. I am in the same case as you most of the time, being harm OCD. I have some other types of OCD, but they have been less significant now than they were a few years ago.

I know this will be really difficult for the next few months, as finding the right medication takes a lot of time. Believe me. For me to find a medication that worked for me was 3 months, and I am considered a lucky person.

But medication isn't the only option. As what you are doing, there is also therapy options. You could avoid the news, which tends to be more triggering to people of these thoughts. Talking to someone with an open mind about these thoughts will probably help too, even if it is not your psychotherapist.

I do wish you the best of luck, and do hope you find some relief to your suffering.