I am 19 years old and I think I might have some kind of mental disorder. I was diagnosed with depression 4 years ago so I know what it feels like to have really bad depression but what I feel now is much different than that. The main difference is that I dont feel emotions like I did when I had depression I cant even cry anymore except once in a long while. Im starting to think that I might have schizophrenia or something similar to it.

Ill try to explain what it feels like. I am thinking much more deeply now and asking a lot of weird questions. I dwell on a lot of things and can think about the same thing for hours. I am confusing my dreams, reality, and TV and things I made up in my head. I am real paranoid all the time especially when I get stressed out. I am having things like delusions when I think people are watching me from the TV and computer and things. I have thought that I was being monitored before. And sometimes I feel like I am one of the few real people on the earth and everything else is just like a hologram or fake thing. I can sit in a dark room for hours without doing anything at all. Sometimes I feel like Im in a dream world, sometimes like a good dream other times like a complete nightmare. I have waited to wake up from a bad dream and only realized it was real life.

Im not taking any medications or anything and havent been for the past 2 years. I was taking medications for depression but quit 2 years ago. I look back at my life as it was like a story being told to me and question if it is real or not. Once in a while some of the symptoms will go away but it wont last that long. Can someone explain to me if that sounds like early signs of schizophrenia? or describe to me what it feels like to have schizophrenia, it would help a lot, thx.