I'm glad you feel like you can reach out.
I'm also glad you've thrown out the pills.

You'd mentioned a trauma centre. Do you get help there? If so, do they know how much you feel in crisis now? Are you able to let them know?

Another option is to go to the ER for immediate help.

In addition, it sounds like you and your partner could use some couples counseling.

Take immediate care of yourself first, making healthy choices within this moment and within each moment which follows.
Please stay safe.


WC