I have been married for almost two years, and I want a divorce but he says he doesn't.

I cheated on him, once, last year, and he constantly (like, more than once a day) brings it up to fight with me about it. I already apologized a million times for it, and I don't know what more I can do.

He was arrested last year, and he wrote me many times from jail, telling me he wanted a divorce and he never wanted to see me again. So, I got on with my life. I dated some men and had physical relationships with them. I was honest with my husband when he got out of jail and he said he wanted to get back together. I told him that I had been with other men, because I hadn't heard from him in six months, and the last I heard, he never wanted to see me again.

Is it fair for him to say that I was cheating on him while he was in jail?

I thought we were headed for divorce, and at the very least, we were unofficially separated. I don't think it is fair for him to demand that I put my life on hold, when I had no reasonable expectation that we were going to get back together.

He fights with me constantly about my "cheating," and I don't know what to do, since I don't consider myself to have cheated while he was away.

Should I feel guilty? Is he right?

Either way, how do I go about resolving this issue once and for all? I am so tired of being called a "lady of the night," cheater, liar, etc. I have been truthful to a fault.

I am so sick of arguing with him about this, I literally could tear all my hair out.