The truth is it's been two weeks since I've seen T and right now I really don't miss him.
I think about him but I don't miss him.

I don't want to go back today.

Connecting and disconnecting and then connecting again? What is this? It's crap, that's what it is. It's pain. It hurts. Why should we have to experience this? Aren't loving relationships supposed to be consistent? Aren't they supposed to be there all the time?
I'm always the one holding down the fort, and I don't want to be that one anymore.

I'm sick of holding my breath in between. And then sometimes feeling good and sometimes not feeling good.

Right now I feel sick. Blah. Yuck. %#@&#! him.