I'm starting to think my T will get my meds up, suggest IOP or IP. I want none of that. I'm currently caring for my nephew through out the week. Sun-Thursday. Yeah, that was a bad idea. I don't want my meds increased because I can't take the weight gain. IOP and IP is out of the question because then my whole family would find out. I want to cancel but won't. I'm getting more and more confused. I can no longer talk to my husband, T or Pdoc. I'm not sure but I want to skip Wednesday co-op because it has cameras. However will that mean I spend the day hiding from intruders or hurt myself IDK? So to add to my inability to speak I'm now paranoid great combo. I have until Monday for me to decided if I go to T. and I have until Wednesday morning to decide on co-op.