Sister, I hear ya, and have had to deal with this feeling myself during the break and the only thing that has brought be back to now is knowing that me and T do continue even when apart, that her caring is still within me. I know when my mother walked out the room her caring seemed to stop, but with T I know when she returns she will return with the same degree of caring and nothing about her would have changed. I think its a big leap of faith to trust that we have continued even though apart?