SC it has been so good seeing your name around again. Sorry that you're here in this forum due to circumstances but you get what we mean....

As for being cut out for this work? This is HOW you find out whether or not this is what you want to do and are able to do. By actually going through the losses and finding out how you do cope and what areas you might need more support for getting through.

You're not the first person to enter your field w/ questions of being "cut out for it" and you certainly won't be the last.

It is good that you've posted as hopefully others w/ similar professional experiences will be able to reassure you that you're not alone in how you feel and what you're thinking.

We've had many friends work hospice and through their tales we've known much good, bad and everything in between. From that we know we're not cut out for that particular type of work.

Sorry that work brings the harsh realities of life and death into such close scrutiny.

You've accomplished so much academically and personally and been gracious enough to share much of that journey here in this community. You're quite an amazing work in progress SC!