AS, I have a situation going on right now similar to what you are talking about and I feel myself slipping into hell...I want to destroy also, want to set it alight and jump all over it! how dare they!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel very small and very afraid and very confused and am hurting like hell right now!...the world is becoming unclear, the echoes of the past are calling me...my focus has gone....I am turinng into a monster as I type or is it what is happening is monsterous? arrrrgghhh get me out of here I am sick and tired of waiting on people!