i think i can understand...

my behavior is chaotic anymore too...

i used to have online friends i could talk to but i ran them off because how quickly and chaotic my emotions change and are.. thought i could be open and honest with them but im trying to teach myself that i cant talk to people and be open about some thing because they dont understand.. how can they understand when i dont even understand?

now i dont really have any friends... there are people in my life that try to be close to me and i just draw back painfully... knowing the end results if i get attached and allow it all to happen again

but its really hard and painful because i am so alone and just yearn for someone to be near me... to hear me... to understand... to say its ok and they wont leave me...

but i am working on things, we have to stay focused on what we desire... and the paths we can create to get there.. sometimes there are no foreseeable ways..
but this is a world where all things are possible... i dont believe in impossibilities..
one foot in front of the other... and then listen to this song.. Son Lux - Easy

we have a lot of work to do.. hang in there my lonely friend...