My previous post did not really answer your question but nevertheles, I hope some of it was helpful.....

You know how I said it is hard to know what is best for our children. Even when a parent suspects their child may have some problems, it can be hard to know how to approach these problems. They may not have told you about the difficulties they encountered because they love you and did not want to hurt your confidence. They may have been fearful of doing something that might label you. They may have thought/hoped that you would "grow out of" some of your difficulties. You were not the only child out there who couldn't make friends in school and/or had low self confidence. There are many successful adults who have experienced this. I am sorry it reminded you of how lonely you are. You make friends easily at PC. Someday, I bet this will transfer into a IRL friendship.