The most common question. The one everyone has to ask. Why do they have to ask? Well, they could be trying to verify if I'm telling the truth. They could be attempting to understand. They could feel guilty because I didn't go to them.
The truth is, I don't know the real reason(s) why I'm asked this so much. And in a sense, the question is a little redundant since I have told, hence how they even know enough to ask me this same damn question. So, I guess the better way of phrasing the question is: Why didn't you say anything back then?
You know, I don't have a good answer. I really don't. You'd think that I would, considering all I've asked myself for a long time is the same question I'm always asked. I mean I don't know the logic but I remember the feelings very vividly. I remember being so terrified that I couldn't speak, literally couldn't speak, for what seemed like forever. I remember being so angry that no one could see that I was ****ing miserable. I remember feeling so "loyal" that when confronted I kept my mouth shut even tighter. I remember being so confused all of the time that I couldn't make any sense of what was happening. I remember not knowing what happened and only feeling shame and guilt for what little I "understood". And then I remember not feeling anymore because it was normal and emotions were pointless.

So, here's my question. You saw all of these changes in me. You saw all of these signs. You heard me cry through the thin walls. You heard me scream out in rage. You saw me unable to function for years. And a couple of you knew what was happening. Why didn't you say anything?