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Old Oct 01, 2017, 11:40 AM
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This isn't hard to find the phrases, but it's very difficult to write. I think it a very good topic.

I have quite a few, with the beast for last. Yes, I did mean to say "beast."

"Quit taking your meds again?"
I've never skipped meds more than one time in a row, and that was accidental and just one skipped dosing and fat less than once every two months.

"Do you need to find somewhere else to be?"
No $$$$! That's part of what's killing me inside.

"You're manic."
Well duh! This was one my ex would spring in me no matter what. I was usually suicidally depressed around her.

"We just thought you were tired."
For three days or more?!? I didn't get up except for the bathroom in 3 days!

"You're moody lately."

"Are you having a bipolar moment?"
?WTF?! I AM DIAGNOSED bipolar. Therefore, I'm always having a bipolar moment you jackass. Ever thought about me enough to read the signs or watch the videos I've got for you on disc? I've asked you over 10 times because it would show me you do care and could save my life, but you always say "not now."

"Don't yell about it."
That would require loud volume. Read a dictionary. Do I need to look it up for you?

"You were mad at us so we left you alone."
No, I was suicidal but you missed all the signs again.

"Why do you just leave the room every time we come in?"
Because I don't want to be around anyone, especially me, but that a554013 won't leave me be ever.

"Where have you been for 3 days."
In bed, nevet more that 20 feet away, and contemplating am exodus the whole time.

"We're always here for you."
Then why the 5555 do you always tell me you don't want to hear about it and that I'm wrong?

"What do you mean you're broke?"
I have large bills, no money to start with and I had a brief period of hypomania. Pay attention!

"I know what bipolar is."
BS, or you'd know the signs. Why can't you answer any more than "it's manic/depressive," and even when I ask if you know what those two are you just reply, "I know what that is. Stop pressuring me."

"I thought I heard something last night."
Do you not know what sobbing my eyes out sounds like by now? All I really needed was a hug, but I stood there crying with my arms out and could even form sentences at that point, so I went to bed yet again feeling like everyone rejects me, even and especially my parents, whom I've been helping as a live-in for nearly two years.

"Why are you hiding in your room all the time? Did you do something wrong? Is somebody out to get you?"
That would be paranoia. When you saw me in the corner with a blanket over my head, that should be a red flag every time.

"Did you call your doctor yet?"
I don't think hiding under a blanket for two days is going to let me reach the phone that's been in the other room in the same place and off the charger the whole time.

"Nobody needs that much exercise."
Correct. I need 5 times what I get. I should workout 5 or 6 hours every day. It gives me the emotional stability to let your crap roll off.

And the worst one of all, the one that sets me to a full-on rage setting every time:
"I WAS ONLY JUST..."
No, you weren't just. You weren't being just at all. You were persecuting me for my feelings yet again because you and everyone I've allowed myself to be around are all emotionally unavailable. You were only trying to justify your actions and behaviours. There's no justifying what you've said or did. Be just for one and apologize. You certainly think I should apologize all the time, which is probably why you keep bringing up EVERYTHING I've done wrong since I was born, even the things I've continually apologized for multiple times a day. You on the other hand were to your abilities "only just." This is usually followed by "your wrong. You don't talk to me that way. I was just..."
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