i dont see a threapist av never been able to talk about the abuse to anyone talking i shut down its too much for me but the flashbacks , the spacing out and the feeling of being unsafe is with me most of the time the group today was at a coffee shop not at the church i had friends there apart from 3 people who av never met before its too exposed for me anyone can turn up normally ok in coffee shops there has been a few time where av been triggered
Now am sitting here with a teady scared to leave the house now and i have a friend birthday party meal to go to tomorrow and some of the people there i have never met before ...dont want to go but the friends who birthday it is dont know i space out or that i have flashbacks he knows am ill but not why am ill