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Originally Posted by eggyolk2
I have one other personality. I feel like I share the brain in my body with another me. It sounds freaking crazy, yes I know. She is evil actually. Since I was younger, I or her, was breaking things and hurting my brother constantly. I or her would apologise and say this exactly "Sorry that was Bad Alison, not Good Alison." I have been seeing and hearing scary voices, whispers, screaming and random conversations since I was younger (not sure the exact age) and I was so scared for years. I have spoken to my other half actually. I can hear her in my mind daily. She laughs, screams and just talks normally. My girlfriend saw her come out multiple times. She believes that as a child I could not handle all emotions since I was extremely abused by my family that I made another personality that had the bad emotions. The Bad Alison has two emotions, anger and dark humor (EVIL). I have every other one. She feels no pain or remorse. I feel so much pain all the time. She is always laughing in my head. Every time I cry, she laughs. She told my girlfriend that soon that we will become one and not two different personality. I truly am never in my body when she comes out. She has very crazy, open eyes and a sinister smile. I know when I about to switch. I lose almost all senses such as eyesight, hearing loss and sense of feeling/touch. I have one big thing I see that is not real. A guy (maybe) hologram looking, no face, dark and scary. He whispers to me often even without seeing him. I have experienced severe childhood trauma. I get major flashbacks while dissociating and when I dissociate, I become completely catatonic. I see myself floating above my body looking down on myself all alone and dark and without clothes. If anyone reading this or knows of anyone that has anything like I experience, please please please reply I need to know what is happening to me. Thanks
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In me splitting into a good side of me and a bad side of me was not called a dissociative disorder. in me "Splitting" into me or those around me into good and bad was not called a dissociative disorder. This was different than my having my dissociative type of alters with my DID. in me the splitting into good and bad me's, is part of my depressive disorders, in my sibling having a good personality and a bad personality ("Splitting) is called borderline personality disorder.
like others have already said I cant tell you what this is in you, only your own doctors can do that. my suggestion is call your medical doctor and tell them what is going on, they will be able to get you set up for a mental health person who can tell you what this is in you.
in the mean time if you google the words splitting into good and bad you will see all the different things this can be.