Hey, once again, nothing fits into a certain area and I have no idea about what is wrong with me. Uh, I'm sorry.

Well first of all... I'm confused and feel more aggressive than usual, like everything will set me off or I'll get heavily depressed.
I can't communicate with people, I distanced myself and am keeping zero contact with close friends anymore.
Even my girlfriend realized this and It hurts, everything hurts.
I just want to cry out for help, but I can't, I just can't. It feels like I can't, like it is just an anchor in my soul. It brings me down and now I'm scared to drag anyone down with me.
Lately I feel like I'm missing time, like I just go on auto pilot until I just feel whole again. I swear it feels like I'm watching myself sometimes.
And last night just proved it to myself.

I was okay, like I tried talking then all of a sudden... I felt like I left my body, I felt myself get angry at my friends.. but didn't feel like I was there. I watched myself say things to my friends, I watched myself talk my friend into a deep hole of depression by my words; but I still felt like I wasn't there.
Then I came back? Like I had control over myself again.
And it was too late. I was too late, what said was done and over with.
God I feel like I'm going crazy..

I can't even hold conversations or relationships anymore..

This post is pointless, there's nothing wrong with me.
I'm sorry.