So i like to have multiple women, toys , being watched now as of couple of years ago. This happens when I am high. I think it comes from when I was a young child 9 or so and I remember getting high and being in some type of movie with other kids. I am a very affectionate person and very respectful. It is like im the exact opposite. The problem has checkered the later part of my life. I have always been kinky but I have had chances when sober to have group sex and I didn't want anything to do with. I have other issues mental that I havve never addressed. I need help.