David,

You know it is funny that you say that about the positive side of things...this weekend I really started to delve into why I was not angry before. Well I realized that it was because I was doing small things (ie when she went scrapbooking I made goodies for her and her friends). This made me happy because I was doing something nice. I was not caught up in my negative thoughts about things. I also realized that my wife is truly my best friend...the person that I can trust, I think that before I found out about my depression I could not trust her (depression lying to me). Now I realize exactly what my wife had to offer me during those times.

As far as me changing I did it for myself because I was in a very dark place and I was scared to death about falling back in there again. I have found small things to occupy my time so I don't have the negative thoughts that made me angry before. Thank you for your support...right now we are working on being friends and I am not pushing the issue of working things out she knows that I love her and that I want us to be together. No sense in beating a dead horse...right?

Dragon