I was first diagnosed with depression @ school. I didn't believe I had depression (because I had felt depressed for so long that that depressed feeling was "normal" to me).

Later on, I was Dx'ed with MDD. Didn't believe that one either for the same reason. But since I was agitated 100% of the time and wanted relief, I figured I'd give antidepressants a go since people kept suggesting it. It was sort of like "yeah, yeah, whatever. Just fix the agitation." Fixed the agitation alright... because it made me manic af!

Then my pdoc was an asshole and took me off it instantly instead of weaning me off and giving me a mood stabilizer or AP. Became severely depressed... "just in time" for my psych evaluation... I actually cried during it. (This was my first pdoc, btw. I quit seeing him.)

I actually told my pdoc all my symptoms and he initially said "hmm, sounds like bipolar." Then because I said no one in my family has bipolar, he didn't believe me, hence the antidepressant w/ no mood stabilizer or AP