Even after admitting there is a problem. Speaking from personal experience and from hearing the same thing from others, one reason that a lot of people don't want to go to AA meetings is the standard introduction. Once you have said "I am an alcoholic", you have essentially categorized yourself as someone who should not ever drink again. It makes drinking again a dangerous rationalization instead of a reasonable choice. I still really want to believe it is temporary. I don't think that it is, but I would like to. Denial is hard to shake.