really? i saw in another post from you that you weren't "feeling it" with your T... now i know you were joking about heating up the couch with a male T (or not!).. but have you considered that maybe a lot of your dissatisfaction with therapy might be because you don't have the right relationship? i don't recall, no surprise for me, what you've said about your relationship...like if you feel it's right or not. Of course, i mutter a lot too but i really do feel he is right for me... i just wonder if his orientation is the right one for me sometimes.

i have heard people talk about T's who sit in silence and it makes me feel ill... i'd hate that. Mine rarely does that.. he'll let a pause hang there for a little bit but he almost never leaves me stranded for long. Just once i think... i drifted away while he was talking about something and at some point i realised he had stopped and was just watching me. THAT felt weird. Not the silence itself but being watched in silence. i know he is watching me all the time really.. but this was tres weird.