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I had another triggering self-harm dream, worse this time. I hate these dreams. Now all I can think of is self-harming. And not for any other reason than it's an addictive behavior. I like it, and I miss it, and I want to do it. I'm not upset in any way so I have no excuse. I just want to do it. I miss it so much. I've never had a substance abuse problem but I imagine it's similar. I'm sure my husband missed using drugs during the periods he was clean.
I mean I won't self-harm of course, I have no reason to. But I hope these dreams stop soon. I hate feeling like this.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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