Evening folks,

so I've recently come to term with the fact that I'm a people pleaser. Well, at least I was until recently. This all started long ago in my childhood listening to what my mom decided what was best for me. Her statements were along the line of "get a good job to make a lot of money", "college is very important", "if you don't go to college you won't amount to anything", etc... So after dropping out of college for the third time I'm done with it. But now I don't know what to do. I was always so busy doing what my mom said was right, that I haven't been given the opportunity to dream. I have no dream job or career, or really any sort of goal excluding wanting to be happy. But that's a very broad goal and has hundreds of routes to achieve that goal. My problem is I have no clue which route is best for me. Do I go back to school again, but find something I'm passionate about? Or do I give up on school?

That reminds me, how does one find what they are passionate about? I have no clue and never have been allowed to experiment. Every aspect of my life has been influenced by mothers opinion or suggestion.

I have serious mommy issues I know. She is very successful and wants for nothing, so its hard for me to just dismiss her. I know she only wants for best me and I know that she loves me. But I can't help but feel different from her.

So I'm rambling I think, need to get back on track.

How do I find my goals in life beyond short term goals? How do I find what I'm passionate about? Should I go back to school if I need to?