I'm so needy right now . I've mentioned a few times that my online friends ( nobody from PC ) have fell out with me .
I've already begged their forgiveness and they said no they don't want to know me . I keep having a desire to reach out to them again , and beg so hard , but I won't because I will look pathetic and I already think they are laughing behind my back . sometimes I'm so angry they won't forgive me as I didn't really do anything wrong apart from saying I felt they were bullying someone which they were . why do I need these people so much ? How will I get over the hurt I feel and the empty void I feel ? Sorry I know I post a lot . I both love and hate them right now . I love them because I need them and miss them and hate them because they won't forgive and are being too harsh on me .