Drugs and therapy never did much in the past. Besides, how is that supposed to help (especially drugs) when it's life circumstances that cause my mood? The only thing that's chemical is this part of the year it gets worse because of the time change, but even if I got drugs tomorrow, by the time the kick in, I'll most likely be better.

No amount of drugs or even therapy (in most cases) is going to make me happy about not being able to get married, pursue the career I want, pursue dreams I've had since I was a teenager (which I won't even state because people think they're dumb), being bi/queer, not being able to have friends (don't connect with people enough). Even though I like the job I have, I'm made to feel ashamed because I'm supposed to have a "better" job. I'm hoping I won't have to feel ashamed anymore when I become a real teacher. The thing is, I have a doctorate, but teaching certification is difficult/expensive where I live. Besides, I don't want to teach here and there's little to no jobs anyway.

So yeah, just sick and tired that I'm supposed to feel ashamed that I'm not supposed to be what everyone else expects me to be.