what a depressing afternoon

binging on chocolate and watching some rubbish drama thing

waiting for a call that's not even happened yet (it was meant to be at 12, it's now half 2)

I don't even have the energy to phone back at the moment- see this is the mistake I made.

give myself a rest day from what i'm meant to be doing, and now I don't want to chase it at all

and I feel crap for it

and I thought rest days were meant to be good

and I thought my mentoring course really helped

and I thought and thought and was wrong..