Thanks, no I've not been diagnosed by a phayciatrust and I feel depressed and hopeless everyday this has been ongoing for years, it's impossible for me to relax Enough and do pleaseurable activities or even appreciate what I'm doing or have, it's like I'm running away or while I'm doing this thing I'm thinking about the next thing rather than enjoying this moment, my grandmother was diagnosed scizphrenic and I can it can be partly hereditary.

Perhaps I could seek some professional help on my travels.