Relieved I wasn't wrong... and really sad too. I've seen and am witnessing it wreck and kill other people close to me, so I'd really like to not join that statistic. Getting dx'ed meant getting treatment, and treatment seems to be working; thus the relief now continues.

It was foolish of me to wait till I was sure I needed help to call though, another few days up, and I wouldn't have wanted anything in the world to get in my way or interfere with what I was feeling. It was already an exaltation of living, visible energy in everything around me, and I was provoking it with a good bit of gusto even as I went to that first appointment which would pull the plug.