The last time I went into a church many years ago they pretty much dragged me up to the altar along with other ppl that had went willingly I told them I was just wanting to listen but they would not leave me alone and the experience that ensued was unpleasant after kneeling and closing my eyes just wishing it all to be over and being surrounded by those people hearing their whispers my body started to vibrate and my heart started to palpitate... They claim that demons have control over my life and I detest such...

I'm no longer Christian and just don't trust the large majority of them...

I have been keeping my eyes open for a spiritual medium but I live in the country so things are distant...

Doing a lot of research and what I can on my own as usual... A lonely soul..