kiya we talked a bit about that today... writing i mean. It's been a loooong time since i have given him anything. He noticed that. SOmetimes i try and nothing comes out... when i try to write how i feel everything vanishes.

it's hard

he made me write down some things i couldn't say... not to give him but to take home so i can remember what it was... and maybe be able to write about it.

i am going to try but i feel like i have hit a wall.