Thanks everyone. I needed to step away from this post for a while. I think part of the problem is that I lose my voice when guys are romantic towards me. I don't set boundaries. I feel like I have no control.

-- But I do. I can have control and I can say if I want to snuggle or not or if I want to do more or not. Sometimes I feel like a freak if I dont want to. :-(

I just realized that the title of this post was 'Don't Touch Me', but I never say that. I never say anything... I just feel it inside. I need a voice.