Thank you krazibean, Perna, and ECHOES.

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ECHOES said:
I'm wondering if your wanting to explore his healing interests is related to the depth of your feelings right now and a wish for a magical fix to feel better.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">No, it is actually the opposite. When I was feeling better, I wanted to explore his alternative healing approaches (no, he doesn't do acupuncture, Perna, although my previous counselor did--I consider that pretty mainstream!). Now that I feel like c**p, I don't even want to see him. The thing is I realize I can change from up to down quickly so by the time therapy day rolls around, maybe I will feel good enough to go. I was just so down, feeling like I am trapped and have reached dead ends with my life and I don't know what to do. Basic stuff, like how will I have money to feed myself? Will I become a bag lady? And then I worry about this thing growing on my ovary. And my daughter, who I hate to say this sometimes seems like a sociopath to me and I don't know how to help her. And I have to get like 6 bids for repair work on my house for the divorce settlement and I have no more time off work for that. And I had this c**ppy conversation with my lawyer yesterday. I feel like I have too much stuff for one session and besides, I feel he couldn't help. I hope I will feel differently another day.

Thank you, everyone.