Thank you for reading through all of that and replying.
I don't really have options for therapy because it is very expensive and I am just a student who couldn't pay all of that.
But I wanted to inform myself about cheaper or different options for therapy.
'Talking' with random people on psych central feels like a small therapy session for me and it makes me feel better than just dealing with all of that alone.

But if I feel like that I won't get better than I will consider to go to a therapist.

Sending you lots of love and strength!