A perfectly understandable feeling. Good for you to express it outload. Don't be so sure you can't talk about this with your husband. It might draw you closer so long as no blaming is involved. If not than maybe there is a support group in your community. Someway to connect with other's who like you are living with and caring for some who is recovering from a heart attack.

And of course.... people are always here to listen to your cries. Feel free to write about it. No one will judge you. No one will condemn you. No one will think badly of you. Let it out one way or another. We are here to listen and to help hold you up.

You are not alone.... ((((debby)))))