I came home and felt my heart pounding really bad and all this anger and rage connected to how I feel about myself, my decisions, all the things I have to do moving forward. It's all too much to take. I look in the mirror and feel like screaming and breaking it. I keep trying to say that tomorrow is another day, but these patterns just keep coming back. I know something needs to change, but it's all just too much right now. Plus, there's only so much I am capable of at the moment. I'm listening to music that reflects how I'm feeling just to get everything out of my system.