greentire4me, My t specializes in mood disorders and substance use disorders and she thinks my drinking and using *might* be self medicating for the bipolar disorder rather than true addictive behavior. But she isn't discounting my word; just floating another theory as a possibility. Why a pdoc would accuse you of lying is really hard to understand. You can't change her or what she said, but you can control your impulse and your actions in response to it. Don't drink - if/when I get to 2 years I hope I will fight pretty damn hard to keep my sobriety. I hope you are able to do the same.