So sorry you are feeling so frustrated!!! (((kay))) College should be for what YOU get out of it, not what others want! And it's perfectly ok to delay going, or not go at all!

What would you like to be doing? Is there some other way to get there than college? Part of the advantage of being an adult is being allowed to make your own choices.

PS school loans get repaid anyway. You are not the first to take the loan and change your mind!