They've refused them to me in the distant past, but I knew what they were anyway. The doctor that refused also gave up on me and then lost his license within a year anyway for violating some rule, but I don't know which it was. I know my behaviours now and I know my symptoms and problems but don't know their specific thoughts. I do ask "what are your thoughts? Please be brutally honest and in my $4!+. I'm not physically violent and you can say anything. The worst I'll do is leave and not come back, but after everything I've been through, I can take anything." They are always straight up and 100%. I really don't need to see them.