reah,

i think that's the main problem. i have to have alone time to "go inside" or "drift away". it's usually in the form of a very long, relaxing bath. however, i have no time or privacy for that anymore. need to do things for selves every day...can barely do them once a week. it's taking a toll.

one thing i could improve upon is...instead of cleaning, chattting, etc. when baby goes to bed, i could do my special things then for insiders. however, it's time i want for me as well to clean, chat, etc. don't have time for it all. when i don't do what i need to for selves, start shattering fast.

i have to figure something out. maybe stay up later and nap when he does. however, napping during the day i think would depress me more

i just don't know.

thank you for suggestions! be safe,

kd