Was talking about really triggering stuff. The most difficult stuff. I was trembling a lot. T asked me where the trembling was, I said the waist upwards. He asked me whether I was able to let it pass through my whole body. I said no it won't listen to me. He said what does it want you to hear? I thought for a long time and said 'I want to touch your hand' he held out his hand and held mine, just for a few seconds. He said his interpretation (and it's just a metaphor) is that those feelings needed grounding and touching him was another way to ground them.
We had some eye contact. It felt increasingly deep but time was up. He said that I am battling inhibitions and it's a tough battle. I stood up and looked at him pitifully he smiled, stood up and without saying anything, hugged me. As he hugged me I said it would be a lot more difficult without you.
He was really attuned to me today. It was what I needed after feeling destabilised last session.