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Originally Posted by UpDownAround
I got the BP dx first but was in denial, so then I sought out the MDD and ADHD dx. I knew what questions to answer differently. SSRIs tend to make me hypomanic, which is not depressed, so I would report that as working and then would stop taking them when I got tired of being an arrogant jackass. I would drop back into depression and stayed depressed until I grew too weary of it and got ADs again. Wash, rinse, repeat several times through the years. I became a little too fond of the stimulants and was abusing adderall. Finally came clean on my dx when my son's pdoc asked about family history because he was showing signs of BP. Then I went to a new pdoc and got a new dx (in case I got better  ) and started getting the right treatment. |
SSRI antidepressants make me FULL ON manic and added stimulants cemented it. It was nice in college, 29 hours in one semester plus I had work study there. Sleep 3 hours and go at it again. 2 years of that finally took a toll, but luckily not until after graduation. That's when I started requesting, getting prescribed, and using more and more benzos and then stopped the SSRI and the stimulants at once on my own, because I was so very TIRED. So I slept 3 weeks and then made several attempts for days, and finally said "I'll never die! I want out!" It got noticed, all the empty pill bottles from my stockpile of benzos and several OTC pills too. That's when I got hospitalized and diagnosed bipolar.