I am miserable today. The cough is not any better. I am coughing so violently that I am vomiting after every cough spasm. I can't keep my stomach full at work or I will vomit. So I've been drinking a protein shake for breakfast and sipping on water during the day, small sips. That way there's nothing to throw up should I go into a coughing fit. It is quite embarrassing at work to cough the way I am. It's making me so upset. It's been five weeks of this. Will it ever end? I can only be reassured that I don't have lung cancer as the chest X-ray only showed pneumonia.

I slept well last night save for waking up coughing and gagging a few times but I'm still exhausted today. I don't know if I'm still ill or what. I don't do well with being so tired. Im definitely starting to be affected emotionally by all this. My heart goes out to anyone with chronic illnesses because I don't know how you do it.

I have also forgotten my emsam patch for a few nights so that could be affecting me as well. I'm going to try to remember it today.

Sigh...only two more days of work. I was hoping to go out this weekend but I don't know if I'll be able to. Besides me being sick, my mom is now sick and my other two options for babysitters are otherwise engaged. I really didn't want to stay in by myself again.

I just want to be healthy!!!