No offense taken. I think I phrased poorly in the first explanation. She doesn't think I would have as much of a problem with substances if it weren't for the BP. The most recent round of drinking was mostly depressed dosing - ~24 oz of ~12% either in the form of a can of malt liquor or a $3 or $4 bottle of Chardonnay, which I drank at night after everyone was settled in and then streamed something for a little while as an escape. She keyed on that more than my long history.

Here is something that just occurred to me; I have had a lot more hypomania since I quit. I also had a med change about the same time so it is hard to say if it was one or the other or both causing it. Or maybe just the phase of the moon. Who knows? It seemed to settle down without further changes to meds.