My feelings are hard to explain so hear me out?
I'm not sure if it's a normal feeling because I'm unable to literally put myself in other's shoes. However, I've noticed this has gotten worse with me.
My emotions have become fairly "numb", as in there's a slight response, if any at all. I feel unable to laugh or smile genuinely with my "friends" if I would call them that.
I don't feel like they like me. I can be loud sometimes, and I'm unable to have good conversation, as my social skills are lacking. I kind of watch people go by with their friends, and envy that because I don't understand how to socialize well. So I always feel alone.
My attention span has went down severely, and I zone out a lot. It's just really hard to focus lately.
I've been trying to immerse myself in clubs, etc while in college, but even then, I feel different from my peers, and I feel like people gravitate from me because I'm bad at socializing.
Idk. I just feel. Disconnected now you know?