Today at work somebody told me 'oh no you're just like that guy'...sort of joking but totally not joking. I said 'how so', feigning ignorance. He paused for a moment - likely realizing that the truth of the comment was too harsh to elaborate - and said 'you're a kook!' and laughed it off.

He's right of course...if I was suddenly in the news as the perpetrator of a mass shooting, my acquaintances would likely say 'well **** obviously, of course, how did we not see this coming'.

Fortunately I would never do that...I've long ago accepted that it's me, not them and when the time comes it'll just be me, not them.