Got my diagnosis a couple of weeks ago and I just feel a lot of anger. After being called manic so many times in the hospital no matter how many times I told them I wasn't manic, and all of my ups and downs this year since starting antidepressants I'm not surprised just angry. First I was angry at the Dr's for putting that word on my files and my dad for having it and "giving" it to me (yes I understand it's not all genetics) then I realized my life had already been ruined by the depression with ridiculous breaks for me to start too many things I wasn't capable of anyway.

Now the anger just simmers, not sure what it's directed at. Probably better than the denial I was holding onto before being given the diagnosis though.

Before this I just thought I was a very depressed person with little breaks of brilliance. hmmm I kind of still believe that I just try to ruin the brilliance with bad and hilarious behavior, might as well have fun if I can't use my brilliance the way I want.