hi peaches,

i've been reading all your posts, parts 1-4, and can't help but to completely relate to much of it...at one time, this was exactly how many of my therapy sessions were going, becoming triggered, dissociating to other parts (alters), and the session being one big fuzzy blur. often i was leaving in a dissociated state as well, struggling between sessions, not able to get enough support from my ex-T. this caused a lot of ruptures with my ex-T because either he was misunderstanding me or more likely, i was misunderstanding him because i could not fully register what he was saying when i was in these dissociated states.

i know that this may not be a solution or option for everyone who struggles like this in session, but halfway through my years of therapy, i asked my husband if he could come to a few sessions to support me and help me from 'misunderstanding' my T as we worked through yet another rupture. it was so helpful to have him there, that he continued to go to most of my sessions until i was ready to terminate (2.5 years later, twice a week for much of that). he could help explain the things to me during sessions that T was trying to say, especially when i was stuck in one of my many child states, and he also helped to convey things i was trying to get across to T. after sessions, he could help me remember the session and the things that T and i discussed. this assisted me immensely with processing after my sessions and since my husband was involved in the sessions and knew the difficulties i was struggling with, he was able to offer the proper support between sessions that my ex-T could never fully do.