Hi UCLAFan!!....I'm sorry you are having a hard time...just know that you are not alone!....I can relate to the mother/daughter relationship. My mom however doesn't verbally abuse me. HEr abuse towards me is "her nonapprovement" on how I raise my kids, keep my
house(not perfect like her house), and handle my time. It's painful!!...I know how you feel...you want to connect to this being that made you and brought you into this world. The only concilation I have is that I'm trying to do it differently with my two kids. Stay strong, for life changes and your situation will come around. Hugsssssssssss!!